Shame about that guilt thing from your family, sometimes families just don’t get it. Sounds like they think they know whats best for you…what works for them but not for you would never work out, ends up in a vicious circle of unhappiness all round. Sometimes time and space puts things in perspective for people, hopefully your family comes around and recognizes that you need to do what makes you happy. It could take awhile, had some similar problems when I was your age, took over a year to actually get close to being on the same page, but it worked itself out…fingers crossed the same can happen for you.
Good luck with the trip, keep yourself safe & take those vitamins <img> Looking forward to hearing about your new life <img>
ps J is playing in San Francisco October 25th…say hi to Rosa for me <img>