Hey CJ !
Seems you really had some bad luck [img]images/smiles/converted/frown.gif[/img]. I’m sorry for you, but probably there are some really interesting years lying before you.
As Mattman already pointed out, it seems that you would like to make/play some music; and so I agree with his "go for it".
I don’t know how much fun it is (or how much sense it makes) to play bass just for yourself or if you can compose any good songs, with just this instrument (I play the guitar and think it is pretty obvious that this is possible). But I can tell you that I really enjoy making music alone in my room only for myself (and maybe for that one special person).
We have all the possibilities we want since everyone has a computer and probably some extra cash for a decent sound card and a sythesizer. With today’s software you can record your own songs (if you understand how things work more or less the way you have it represented in your mind), make your own sounds, get your own style, well do whatever you want.
But you have to remember: It can’t beat the feeling you have playing your own tunes together with people you like. I sometimes try to remember the feelings I had in the past, when we were playing a song and you forgot everything around you and it just felt perfect (all those physiological sensations !!!).
Just my 2 cents, thanks for listening.
who really thinks you should get yourself some second hand guitar, some keyboard, a mic and some pirated software and give it a try [img]images/smiles/converted/wink.gif[/img]